I mostly watched friends make music while I drank beer and tried to take pictures with no one noticing. I’m going out a lot once I’m back in New York - Erin keeps giving me party dresses so I keep putting them on. I like falling asleep to her noise machine and feeling empty. I spend a lot of time talking - and I mean talking. To myself, to strangers, too much too fast to everyone. I feel raw, vulnerable, and ready.